Time to face the Music

Been feeling off for a while now. And I can no longer attribute it to merely being in an "emotional down" phase. I wonder why I feel like this. After a brilliant March, I thought that April would bring more delight along with spring.

The first 10 days of April have shown no sign of that promise. Not that I'm going through an especially rough time, in fact, the days are no different than any other. I am happy, and yet when I'm alone, there's a kind of forlorn-ness in my mood.

I sense something ending soon. Sometimes I wish things don't have to change so quickly. I've barely enjoyed the best moments in this time, and now it's gonna end? Sure, the unknown future may be even better, but right now I choose to stick to what I know is good, thank you.

Is it just apprehension that's making me feel off? I don't dread summer, but it will be so different from what I'm used to. I'm excited, yet it's costing me 3 whole unproductive months at home. Thinking long-term, it's worth more than it costs. Doesn't stop me from wishing, though.

Anyhow, one of these days, I'm gonna face it. And finish up all the paperwork for summer that's piling up. Maybe that's the real reason for my mood. Procrastination. And its aftermath.