Sunday, February 27, 2005

The Owl & The Hummingbird

Once upon a time, the owl and the hummingbird were lovers. As we all know, the owl is active at night but sleeps in the morning. The hummingbird is the exact opposite, flitting among flowers by day and returning to her nest when night arrives. Yet, in spite of their differences, they loved each other dearly and spent as much time together as they possibly could in the early hours of dawn.

There was only one potential problem. The hummingbird disliked birds who killed other animals that were not part of the natural food chain. Back in those days, the owl only hunted rats, helping farmers to control these pests. The owl knew that the hummingbird did not want him to hunt chickens, which were a source of livelihood for the farmers. He solemnly promised her that he would never kill chickens. Happily trusting him, the hummingbird never once questioned his promise...

...until one day, when she discovered some chicken remains in his nest. She confronted him and he immediately confessed that rats were scarcer recently, so he resorted to taking some chickens from the nearest farm. However, he assured her that he took only enough chickens to satisfy his hunger. Heartbroken, the hummingbird felt betrayed.

Bit by bit, the hummingbird found out more about his habit. It had been going on for almost a year. Shocked that she never realized this change and that he could keep it from her for so long, the hummingbird was crushed. She contemplated breaking off their relationship. Yet, she loved the owl very much and she knew that besides this recent discovery, their relationship had been almost perfect.

The owl promised her that he would stop hunting chickens immediately. Although she did not trust him as much as before, she decided to forgive him. Soon, she forgot about the incident and they became closer than before. The hummingbird innocently believed that the owl had successfully changed his habits..

.. but she should have known that it was too good to be true. Within half a year, she came across evidence to the contrary. The hummingbird was devastated. The owl again confessed, and explained that it was difficult for him to immediately stop hunting chickens, because his hunger was intolerable. He promised that he would stop when rats were more abundant, but for now, there was nothing he could do.

The hummingbird reacted more calmly this time. She did not threaten to leave the owl, instead she accepted his explanation and reassured him that she understood his situation.

Yet, the hummingbird was beginning to realize that things will never change, not even in the future when there may be more rats. She knew that she will never see him hunting chickens at night, but that she would get very upset everytime she finds some evidence about his hunting activities.

She wondered if getting upset once in a while is a worthy reason for leaving the owl.

She wondered if the relationship would ever be mended again, if there was always an issue of trust hanging in the air.

She wondered if she will ever trust him to keep a promise again.

She wondered what else he might be hiding from her, and she knew that she might never find out, given his skill at covering up his tracks.

She wondered if she should give up, if there might be some other bird out there who was more suited for her.

She wondered if she should expect the owl to change for her.

She wondered if she was expecting too much.

She wondered and she wondered.. and still she did not know what to do...

(continued in The Eagle & The Hummingbird, March 7)

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

In this case...

Maclaurin's Theorem, for an odd reason, will forever be funny to me.

I nearly laughed out loud in stats class this morning over a memory of my Singapore days. Prof. Parsa mentioned briefly about a formula, which as I recall, is linked to the Maclaurin's Theorem.

When I was studying in Singapore, one of my Math lecturers had a weird habit. Her lectures were dotted with "in this case"s. And I mean that she sprinkled that phrase liberally EVERYWHERE. She, in this case, had to say the 3, in this case, "magic" words at least, in this case, several times in one sentence.

Her habit was a constant source of jokes in class. We often tried to keep track of how many "in this case"s she said in a 1 1/2 hour lecture. One of the other classes actually made a pact to do a "human wave" in class IF she ever exceeded 200 "in this case"s. She did reach the target, but I never got to see the "human wave".

As time went on, her "motto" ceased to bug me, and soon I barely noticed the 3 special words anymore. However, the highlight of her lectures came late during my stint in Singapore, when she said..

"For this example, we will use, in this case, the Maclaurin's, IN THIS CASE, Theorem..."

which led me to wonder how many other "Maclaurin's" are there?

Monday, February 14, 2005

信任与原则

原来信任比原则重要。

整天说做人一定要有原则。 假如原则和情相撞,你选那一个?

可以为了守一个原则而翻脸? 还是为了守一份情而舍弃原则?

为了一个人,推翻以前说的话, 我一点也不后悔。

可惜我对你的信任,就这么少了一点点。

Friday, February 04, 2005

more than Elated!

Just got a call from Nana Ofori, a Drake graduate who gave a presentation about Mercer the night before their on-campus interviews, but was not involved in the interviews.

Anyway he called me up just to tell me that they are gonna invite me for a home visit and that I should expect an email from their campus recruiter soon.

WOOHOO!!!! My first good news after the interviews, and hopefully not the last. ;)

To say I'm elated right now is an understatement, I feel like a writer standing in a bookstore, watching someone buy his first published work.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

My Ambition

Sometimes life is kinda tiring, or at least I can fill it up with stuff that makes it tiring.

Perhaps I'm trying to do too much, should at least leave some down time for myself.

But then again, being busy feels good sometimes.

Although I think I'd rather laze around and do watever interests me at the moment.

My ultimate goal in life is to get someone to take care of me,

and let me do what I want, when I want, and how I want,

ie. be a "shao nai nai".. haha!